New Beginnings

Happy Friday everyone!

Pewf! It's been a hard few days I must say. But I have managed to pull through.

I got my exchange piece off in the mail just in time thank god! While I love doing exchanges I have no idea why I procrastinate in sending them... I could have just sent it when I finished the piece buttttt noooo I have to put myself through the extra stress of waiting to send it off and then the stress of wondering 'How am I ever going to make it to the Post Office before it closes tonight!!!'. Unfortunately, this will likely be my last exchange for quite sometime I think. I found out late last week that I would be losing my job at the end of the month :( 

Lots of cuts at work and I got caught in the landslide. While the thought of no longer working at I place I have come to love is so disappointing, I have decided to take it in stride. There's pretty much nothing that could be done seeing as I had zero seniority. It had nothing to with my work and everyone has been so supportive. So I'll walk away in a couple of weeks having made some great friends and having learned so much more than I ever thought I would. I also have a lot to be thankful for besides as well. I mean I could have been moved into a new house with a massive mortgage and no way to pay it. As it is right now, I live with family and  all I really need to worry about it a couple of bills that my Employment Insurance will more than cover. So I'll be ok financially. So with that, it back on the job hunt for me.  

Over the past couple of years I've been applying to the occasional job ad and have had a couple of interviews. No job - obviously. With everything that has happened recently I've really got to thinking about how I need to approach any future interviews. I need to work on being clear and to the point. I find when I don't know an answer I tend to bable. ENOUGH OF THAT I say! I'm going to try and prepare more and perhaps even make out a list of possible questions.

Secondly, I've got to work on that thing called confidence. Jeez, I used to have oodles of the stuff, but lately I don't know exactly where it might be hiding. Practicing before an interview should help, but I also need to sell myself better and have more confidence in my abilities. I know I'm smart and have a lot to offer I just need to start acting like it. I also need to have confidence in me as a whole. In the end I think I need to start taking care of myself and work on some of the body issues that have been accumulating. I've never been a skinny girl and I have no desire to be, but I do want to get to a healthier me. Not one who is huffing and puffing after a couple flights of stairs. ENOUGH OF THAT! I've joined a gym and have a couple of sessions booked with a personal trainer to plan out some goals. Having been there a few times as this point I'm feeling great! I have more energy and even my boyfriend says I look more invigorated (God love him lol).  I hope to eventually be able to complete a spin class... which I tried to attend the other day... yeah that didn't turn out so great haha... Didn't even last 10 minutes and my butt is STILL hurting from the seat. Given that I used to own a bike when I lived in Europe - which I used ALLLLLLLLLLL the time, I don't really understand how I got to the point where peddling for short periods standing up got to be so hard, BUT, I digress. Confidence starts and finishes with me, and if I'm not feeling good about the skin I'm living in then confidence will be hard to come by. So here's to new beginnings! I'm ready for what the future holds and I refuse to get down on myself! There's lots of opportunities out there and I'm ready to dive in head first!

Ciao for now!

Melissa